It takes more than an ordinary amount of bravery for me to get out of bed everyday so I wear really nice pajamas. There is so much fear of what lies ahead I get paralyzed by it. I used to bolt out the door with whatever clothes were laying on the floor to get coffee so that I wouldn’t get stuck in the circles of anxiety in my head. Now, I’m finally in a place where I’m well enough to take my medication routinely. The daunting task of medicine before coffee. I take 13 prescriptions in the morning. Not psychiatric medication. Medication to manage side effects. That’s right. It takes 13 prescription medications to counter the damage of 4 psychotropic medications (which I take at night). Psychotropic medication is so damaging that the median life expectancy for someone who takes it on a regular basis is reduced by 25 years. The reason psychotropic medication is so damaging is because there are minimal studies being done to improve the few archaic drugs on the market. No one is donating money to healthcare systems for studies and testing because people don’t think this disease is worth it.
Because of the stigma I’m not worth it.
Again you might be thinking, who is this girl to critique healthcare? I’m a patient with an opinion and a person who deserves better.
And in case you were wondering if I’m at all embarrassed about the fact that I take so many meds, I’m not. Like I’ve said before, I am a strong, beautiful woman and I’m kicking butt. I got myself out of my darkest place and I am so proud of myself.
Pajama Power 💪
My favorite places to shop for pajamas are Amazon, Target, and TJ Maxx. I like to get a variety of things from shorty robes to loungewear to full on pajama sets. I like to mix it up and keep it fun so I still feel fly in such icky situations.